Truth.

"A woman’s heart must be so lost in God that a man must seek him to find her.."

Mmm.

Avoidance.

You're avoiding me because you know I'm telling the truth.

And sometimes the truth is hard to hear.

It disagrees with us, breaks our pride, brings us to our knees.

To that place we know we need to be.

But we'd fight and struggle and rebel just to flee from it.

Just to stay as we are.

To stay in our own secluded haven.

To stay broken, but fixing it the way we know how to.

By avoiding.

I give up.

Spinning Circles.

Once again, I find myself longing to share how music is a language in itself that speaks for me.

I wrote this song a while ago for a close friend who was facing a really tough, uncontrollable situation. From her perspective, this situation was unchangeable, bleak, depressing and unhopeful, in every way. As humans, our natural response is to want to blame someone, particularly God. He's meant to be on our side, right? So why on earth would he allow such a horrid circumstance to play itself out?

I wrote this song from this perspective, where it feels as if God had thrown not just one spanner in the works, but many, causing one thing to go wrong after another; the depressive outlook on life did not end.

Spinning Circles

What did I do wrong this time?

Spinning circles in my head

I find my reflection in the pavement here

They sing stories of yesteryear

It's happening all over,

It's happening all over again..

It's happening all over,

It's happening all over again..

You took away all that I had

Crowded rooms welcoming my face

There's no place that I'd hate more to be in

When they sing stories of yesteryear

It's happening all over,

It's happening all over again..

It's happening all over,

It's happening all over again..

There's a hole in my chest

And you're not healing it

Though you'll say you're all loving

And you'll say that you're near

There's no way out of this

Though I quietly persist

And your shadow seems too much to take in..

It's happening all over,

It's happening all over again..

It's happening all over,

It's happening all over again..

Dirty and Left Out.

This guy inspires me so much.

Dirty and Left Out - The Almost

Hello, I swear I won't be too long

Hello, I promise I'll be real strong

Wait up, I just wanna tell you

Hold up, why are you still here?

I've been dirtier than you wanna know

I've left earlier than you'll ever know

Why do, you wanna be all listenin' to me

Why do, you spread your arms and tell me I'm free

Why do, you wanna be in my life

In my life

I've been dirtier than you wanna know

I've left earlier than you'll ever know

Jesus, Jesus

There's something about your name

Master, saviour, Jesus

Beginnings.

I can't count on one hand the amount of times I've endeavoured to start a blog and given up straight away or gotten over it for the mere fact that there was probably no one reading it! But this time, I'll persist! (and hope that someone is reading..)

Before I begin talking about stuff and nonsense, I must advise that I am prone to explain myself using lyrics, poetry or quote from another writer. This is probably because I feel that they explain things better than I ever could, but on a deeper level, I'm just not an amazing writer. I love music, but I must admit that I am profusely inclined to pay close attention to the lyrics of a song rather than the music itself, unless a catchy riff steals me first. Somehow, putting the two together - music and lyrics - has the potential to speak for us, and evoke in us something inexplicable. One poet, Victor Hugo, put it quite beautifully,

"Music expresses that which cannot be put into words and cannot remain silent."

This blog isn't necessarily themed, it's just my random thoughts here and there. I'm a little stumped as to what to write about, so suggestions are appreciated, if you're actually reading! I strive to be transparent in life, and that's no different here (Oh, and as for the name, I just thought it was cute!).

Perhaps I'll start by linking you to a song that is on repeat at the moment; "Featherstone" by The Paper Kites. I've seen this band play live several times now and cannot sufficiently describe how wonderful they are as writers and musicians, so you'll just have to listen for now! www.triplejunearthed.com.au/thepaperkites

They have a much anticipated show coming up in July, featuring new material! (wootwoot!)

"Wake up to the sound of your fleeting heart.."

Sarah.